It’s Friday! I wanna scream that out loud for the whole world to hear. I desperately want to hear the sound of nothing. I work in childcare in case you haven’t figured it out. Oh I know what you’re thinking, “You’re babysitting a bunch of kids all day, I could do that!” Yeah, if you were watching two or three, but when you work in a facility with ten or more children crammed in a room, at the end of the day you’ll wanna pull your hair out, and by the end of the week you might want to do a swan dive into a brick wall. I also know what you’re thinking….”If it’s that bad, then find another job.” True, but when that’s all you have ever done since the age of 18, it’s hard to get a decent paying job. Plus I live in a town where if you don’t know someone who knows someone, then all the good jobs are taken or you don’t qualify for the job. Before working at the center I had applied for numerous jobs for I don’t know how long. And either I wouldn’t hear back or the usual, “You don’t qualify.” Besides, I’m good at what I do. And I do come across children that I get attached too. Although I get really aggravated with certain children, it’s their parents I get even more pissed off at. It amazes me how many of these children’s parents point the blame at someone else for their children’s behavior. Even if the child has a simple learning behavior, the parents don’t even want to admit to it. It makes me want to yell at them and say, “your child isn’t getting the proper care he or she needs because of your own insecurities. Your child cannot grow, until you pull your head out of your own ass and face reality.”
Today was a long and difficult day. First off, we were short staffed so I had to cover for a Pre-K teacher. Not hard to do, and this morning was pretty easy because it is Friday and Friday’s are popcorn and movie day. Which also means less lessons centers and more free play. But by lunch time we had to combine both Pre-K classes together, which means 20 children in one class with two teachers. And when you have a handful of behavior issue children it can get way out of control. Because we don’t have the resources to manage these special children and enough staff to deal with these children one on one. Especially one child in particular needs a teacher following him everywhere he goes.
Willie has so many issues I don’t even know where to begin. But there is something about him that rubs me very wrong. It’s just not because he has a hard time following directions, it’s something more than that and I just cant quit put my finger on it. Maybe it has something to do with him always wanting to be up in other children’s personal space or as soon as he gets caught pushing or hitting someone he says he didn’t do it, even when you have seen it with your own two eye’s. Willie has so many behavioral issues, that two months into the school year, the elementary school decided he wasn’t ready for kindergarten. So now he goes half days with us and half days to a special school. But on Friday’s he actually goes to kindergarten half the day. Today he didn’t, because today was kindergarten round-up for next school year, so there were no kindergarten classes today. So with Willie being at work all day, it made it more of a challenge and more of a headache.
I feel I neglect most of the children when he is around, because I’m always having to keep my eye on him. And it seems once I take my eye off of him to help another child, something always happens. There are days when it seems Willie is sitting more in time out than doing any learning activities or social time.
But what makes a day like today bearable are the people I work with. There are a few people I absolutely enjoy working with. And when we see one teacher struggling, another teacher will come and try to ease the situation. Which I feel is a good thing, but we’ve had some teacher’s feel it’s intruding. But I will save that for another day. I’m going to enjoy a nice big glass of sweet red wine and watch American Horror Story on Netflix and try to forget about this long day. I hope whoever reads this has a wonderful and relaxing weekend. Oh and TGIF!!!